Just some random thoughts that have been filling my head lately…

Life is really strange sometimes… How things intersect… Why do we question things…would it be better to let go of the outcome…I sometimes wish my journey didn’t have so many flat tires…i wonder if I actually could just leave today run down the block and just keep on running like forrest gump…who knows…why do really good things happen right along with really bad things…did we ever lose our marbles…why do I always want to go home when I am already home…is home a state of mind more than a physcial structure…why compare…can i…spending time alone sometimes is the best thing in the world, but other times it is excruciating to sit with…can i succeed….will i succeed…does my idea of success mean anything at all…if I believe in fate then why can’t i just accept where i am right now…why do we always want more…do i want more…am i one breakdown away from taking pills…who’s business is it to decide who is crazy and who is not…who is sane…who is better…who is lost…why do we always want it to be colder in the summer…and hotter in the winter…can’t we just be happy with what is…right now…this very moment…do i exist…are we just the bottom feeders of this ginormous universe…what is it like to be an ant…can i see the future…why do glimpses of things always feel like deja vu…does happiness exist…are we all just going with the flow…why settle…if i kept moving would you be able to find me…does true love exist…or do we just tell ourselves that it does because we have yet to actually find it…why does loving someone have to be the best and worst thing all wrapped into one…why do i care…what if i just vanished tomorrow…what if we all vanished tomorrow…would we care…would anyone care…is life finite…or infinite…can we really prove anything is real…can my thoughts go in infinite loop and eventually return to the first thought I ever had the exact moment I took my first breath in this world??

brain dump…should try sometime

Being kinda lazy…Not sure why I have been lazy lately, it just happens sometimes. Although it is not like the ideas churning in my head have not gotten written down on paper, and many other things like hanging out with my brother and eating buffalo burgers is truly considered me being lazy. Also the amounts of shopping going on lately has been putting a dent in the wallet. I have some cool things coming down the line, problem is planning has taken a whole lot longer than I envisioned. Well off to do some semi-interesting things. Like work on some paintings…cuz we all need a little color in our lives!

That one little saying brings the picture of a rave to my head or just channel 81 - BPM (beats per minute) the all club music channel on XM. Just add some techno tune and repeat those words and you’ll have yourself a club hit.

So now back on track to where I was originally headed. No internet at home, the router kicked the bucket last night. I am tempted to flush it, anyone want to take bets on if it will make it to its watery grave? It has been giving me so much trouble in the past few months. Every night I would be consistently without internet from around 6pm - 9pm which mind you are prime world of warcraft playing hours. I won’t blame it on the fact that I have three characters all stuck at level 16! Another story for another day, maybe later this week.

I ordered this book in the mail last week and I have just started reading it. If you have just gotten started in marketing your art, or are even a seasoned pro, her tips are invaluable.  I highly recommend it. I am working my way through some of the recommendations. One being organization. I may have taken that one a bit too seriously, as I have now got descriptions, sizes, medium, and whatever other notes I could think of for all of my paintings. A total of 109 not including 2008. I also started a filing system, cleaned my studio, and rearranged some things.

I am thinking of it all as a business, though it is only a part-time one, at least now I can think of it as one. I will be setting regular hours up for myself and really trying to structure my life around building my illustration business. If words could only describe how utterly excited I am that I actually have reached this epitome. Mind blowing I tell ya.

With said epitome, as well going through my past two years of work, made me come to the realization I need a bit more time to really refine my craft and start creating work that is at a professional level. So there won’t be many new works around here for awhile, the next few months I will be spending working out things creatively in the studio. Don’t worry my blog will not be neglected. I will fill it with photos of my progress, and as soon as the internet is up at home I will have some awesome pictures up of my new clean studio, and my organizing adventures. Which just happened to take up my entire weekend!

Yipee! Check it out I am on the new page over at delightful blogs. Click on the screen shot to go to the site. Can find a ton of really cool blogs there especially if you get bored  run out of things to read here. :O) Big week coming up here, lots of things to do and  gonna be spending almost every night down in the bat cave studio and hopefully not losing my mind in the process…