Here is the video I promised yesterday. Took a little longer to make than I thought it would. It is super simple, and short. Not the most interesting video out there on the web, but still I wanted to mark this accomplishment with something special. Sorry the quality is kinda crappy.

Letting Go, originally uploaded by stacy kathryn.

Painted this yesterday with my hands and a brayer. I just got on the ground with two tubes of a paint white and black. I went nuts. I realized it was the first time I had really gotten my hands in the mess and truly painted with my hands. It was a way of letting go for me. I am trying to figure some stuff out lately…like my style, what I want to paint, how I want my paintings to look. I have been sketching like crazy trying to get ideas on the paper, coaxing them out if you will.

I finished my first sketch book ever today. I have a ton of sketch books, mostly half filled, but I finished one today. I started it in January of this year, and more than half of it is sketches from just the past few months. I did a mini sketch-a-thon to finish the last 20 or so pages. I am going to make a video of it tomorrow. Hopefully will be able to get it up here.

Mother.Son., originally uploaded by stacy kathryn.

posting for postings sake

Another painting for the group show I am participating in next month.

I’m procrastinating here on this lazy Saturday morning. I want to write, as I have a word count to hit. Yet I am not feeling all that motivated to write. I feel right now the story I am writing is losing momentum, or maybe I am. I will not bore you today with my thoughts on writing 50k in a month, instead I will open the file and try to up my word count a little, so that I could get just slightly closer to that goal.

I need to set up my other scanner, I am finding my current one is scanning a bit weirdly lately. I am surprised some days it still works seeing that it is eight years old. I know there are way better scanners out there and for cheaper, but if it still works why fuss with it. Still I have another all in one printer scanner down in the basement that I should just set up already and use…

Not sure why I am babbling on about scanners, just have a lack of things to say today. My brain is all mush, and really crowded with all these crazy thoughts. I sent out another round of promo cards earlier this week, and am really hoping some work comes in. I know I am totally new to all this, and just getting started and it takes time. I get impatient at times though, and it’s easy to feel discouraged when you sit around in your studio trying to come up with things to paint so that you can build a portfolio. I know the work will come, and that it does take time, and I will get there. One baby micro step at a time. I just wish I could take all my gremlins out for a day on the town and get them drunk and let them pass out so they would just stop talking stupid already.

I know how does that make any sense. I am trying, I am painting, I am certain it will all work out, and I am an artist. All that other trash in my brain right now just needs to go out.

The older we get the wiser we get?

Next month I will be taking part in a group show called Play Child Play over at the Effe Leven Gallery in Chicago. I haven’t really talked about it too much here, as I have been really busy trying to get the paintings done for it. Also getting them framed, and all the other little stuff that goes along with getting artwork ready for a show. It is a lot of work. It is almost done though, all that is left is to drop them off. This is one of the paintings I did for that show…

“laugh play dream” 12″ x 12″ mixed media on canvas

So I am working extra hard on my novel, and managed to get way ahead in word count. Yesterday while I was trying to make some invoices and then cleaning up the desktop I somehow trashed my novel. All 6,000 words gone in one quick click of the mouse. I didn’t notice though until hours later when I was all excited about the plot line and where I was headed with this story. Let’s just say I was devastated to realize that it was all gone, and I would have to start over…from scratch. Already five days in I need to make up 8,500 words in one day to catch up. BAH! Well I am off to take a nap and then try to work on getting some word count going again.

At least some good things happened yesterday to make deleting my novel not seem so bad.

- warm November days
- sitting outside and reading
- keeping up with my daily word count for my novel
- paintings that just sort of come together
- my new charger for my camera
- short lines at the post office
- spending time with my husband
- the changing of seasons

Went to a baby shower yesterday. Lots of people having babies right now, well at least in my little world. Funny how there is a cycle to everything.