I arrived home from Birmingham on Monday night and since then I feel like i have been running non-stop. It isn’t that I need to play catch-up or anything, I just like to give myself enormous to-do lists and then try to hold myself to them.

I have been trying so hard to stick to a schedule, and I had it all on track before I left, but somewhere in Alabama I lost my schedule keeping abilities. There is this constant feeling of anxiety in my gut, all the what if’s creep in and I start to doubt myself, my abilities, and my dreams.

I know so many people have been there and got through it, and I am sure they also doubted that they would ever make it through. They are succesful now. I doubt myself CONSTANTLY…I have to stop and re-assure myself that this is the right decision and that I can do this, and that yes it is scary and since when isn’t jumping off the career cliff not scary. I just sure hope my chute opens soon!

I’ll leave you with a picture of a lion from the Birmingham Zoo. More highlights of trip later, when I recover from all this imaginary paperwork I am buried under!