That photo above is what I slept inside for four days. This is why…
The first night was quiet, without incident. The second night I awoke around two in the morning to the flutter of wings and the click-clacking of tiny little nails walking across the floor. I then shooed something away from me that I thought was a moth. The continue of tiny little footsteps on the floor led me to believe there may be a mouse on the loose. I called for reinforcements (my dad) who turned on the lights and inspected the room. There he was a little bat hanging from the eaves between the roof and fireplace. (didn’t think to take a photo at the time) We were in shock that a bat made it inside the cabin.  So I grabbed CJ’s dog bed and put it inside my parents room where I slept on the floor for three nights. Needless to say it was uncomfortable and CJ was a little peeved to not have his bed. So off to the store we go in search of something to maybe hang over the bed to keep the bat out. A screen house is the cheapest thing we found. So now I can sleep without fear of getting either bitten by a rabid bat, or just it flying around over my head. The weird thing is we haven’t seen the bat since that night…elusive little bugger.

View from the ground of the Vulcan Statue, Birmingham, Alabama

Pathway, Chicago Botanic Gardens

12″x9″ Acrylic on Paper

Feeling stuck, again. For the hundredth time in the past few months. Working on a bunch of new stuff, trying to get it all done before September and that date is coming up quick. I find myself having less time to paint lately too.

Straight Down — View from the top of Vulcan Statue, Birmingham, Alabama

Just some random thoughts that have been filling my head lately…

Life is really strange sometimes… How things intersect… Why do we question things…would it be better to let go of the outcome…I sometimes wish my journey didn’t have so many flat tires…i wonder if I actually could just leave today run down the block and just keep on running like forrest gump…who knows…why do really good things happen right along with really bad things…did we ever lose our marbles…why do I always want to go home when I am already home…is home a state of mind more than a physcial structure…why compare…can i…spending time alone sometimes is the best thing in the world, but other times it is excruciating to sit with…can i succeed….will i succeed…does my idea of success mean anything at all…if I believe in fate then why can’t i just accept where i am right now…why do we always want more…do i want more…am i one breakdown away from taking pills…who’s business is it to decide who is crazy and who is not…who is sane…who is better…who is lost…why do we always want it to be colder in the summer…and hotter in the winter…can’t we just be happy with what is…right now…this very moment…do i exist…are we just the bottom feeders of this ginormous universe…what is it like to be an ant…can i see the future…why do glimpses of things always feel like deja vu…does happiness exist…are we all just going with the flow…why settle…if i kept moving would you be able to find me…does true love exist…or do we just tell ourselves that it does because we have yet to actually find it…why does loving someone have to be the best and worst thing all wrapped into one…why do i care…what if i just vanished tomorrow…what if we all vanished tomorrow…would we care…would anyone care…is life finite…or infinite…can we really prove anything is real…can my thoughts go in infinite loop and eventually return to the first thought I ever had the exact moment I took my first breath in this world??

brain dump…should try sometime

Photo taken at Lake Louise Campground, Byron, Illinois.

That one word describes this week, and it isn’t even over yet. Been pretty productive in the studio this week, and have started on quite a few more paintings for the show in Sept & Oct.  There are also some other super exciting news I will have to share with you in the next coming weeks.

Lots of progress being made over here, and it seems like my blogging is suffering in the process. Been feeling overwhelmed some days and others just really embracing this time and these feelings of uncertainty and the little bit of fear that likes to creep in once in awhile.

Some things I really do need to do is take care of myself. I have noticed that my whole schedule is out of whack lately and I have been eating horrible and just not taking care of me. Which is why I now have three cold sores all at the same time. Which just sucks. I have been getting them since I was young, and every time I get one especially if it is visible it just crushes my self esteem and I feel like that is what everyone is staring at and they all want to run away from me. On the good side of all of this, they will be gone soon, and I am making a conscious effort to eat better foods, and make better decisions regarding my health. I have been keeping up with taking daily walks though, so that is a good step. Gotta keep it up, especially when the weather gets cold.

Here are some photos from my studio, a bunch of works in progress for the show…

She had enough balloons to finally take flight. That first step is always the toughest though so it was good that her best friend Steve was there to see her off…