Thursday, September 24, 2009

Answers from Squam

Last year at SAW I came back ready to take on the world, recharged, and just a felt a big push in the right direction. A lot changed after squam last year for me, even my art. This year was completely different. I am not sure I expected to get that same big push as last year, but now in the post squam afterglow I feel like I am where I need to be, moving at the pace I am suppose to be moving at, and that trying to force any of it right now isn’t necessary. It was exactly what I needed at this exact time.

I have never felt like this before, and I am trying to make sense of it all in my head. The thought of working at my own pace and not rushing, not making up deadlines and setting overwhelming goals and to do lists is something I have always thought would be there. The feeling that I am behind no matter how much I accomplish. All those feelings somehow disapeared while I created, let go, and played in my classes. Somewhere between carving into clayboard, painting faces upside down in my journal, and creating books with duct tape and chipboard, all those irrational thoughts and feelings went away. Now four days later they have yet to resurface and I like to think that I left them behind to float off on Squam Lake.

So no big epiphany or major aha moment, just some little shifts that are already making a huge difference.

8 Comments

Kimberly Mailhot
September 24, 2009
I think those answers will take you far, sweet Stacy.

was it only 4 days ago ?
Hugs !
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susan greene
September 24, 2009
I think your work is beautiful and you should keep moving forward with out the stress. As they say in yoga just breath!
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Joe
September 27, 2009
Does this mean no NaNoWriMo this year??
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Corrine Gilman
September 28, 2009
It’s so nice to have that feeling
that there is no pressure and some
how the direction of the work makes sense.

Those quiet realizations seem
somehow so much more important
than the big “aha”…

YOU seemed pretty cool and collected
at your table at the Squam Art
Fair. Good for you.

Hugs

Corrine
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admin
September 28, 2009
So very true Corrine, so glad I had the cool and collected thing down, cuz inside there were lots of butterflies! Your help was greatly appreciated.

And Joe…NaNoWriMo is so on, bring on November!
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BJ Lantz
September 28, 2009
Hi Stacy ~

I love how you described your Squam experience. I felt the same way while creating during those classes. A big change from my normal days…

So nice to meet you

BJ
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carolyn
September 29, 2009
Hi Stacy~

We missed you by the fire when you were vending but I heard you were awesome!!
It was great meeting you and you created some very cool work at Squam.
I hope you continue on your path! You have talent!!!!

carolyn
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Dear 2010 | Stacy Kathryn
January 5, 2011
[...] As July started out I found myself being bullied into quitting my day job, which at the time was devastating, as I’ve never almost been fired, but it also was for the best. As I struggled to move past it, and reclaim my self-esteem, I felt as if I was floundering. All I could do is take what you handed me 2010, and start making the best of it. So I got to work on an illustration for Joie magazine, I was a vendor at the Brookfield Art Fair and took several road trips throughout the month of August. You allowed me time to spend with family and friends and let myself have a breather. I was also able to attend Squam Art Workshops again this year, and totally step outside my comfort zone with the classes I took. [...]
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