Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Changes Come Around Real Fast

Ignore the last post, Iâ€™m leaving it up for a yet to be determined reason.

I canâ€™t even tell you the gamut of feelings, and emotions that I have had over the past month or so. There are just too many. One day Iâ€™ll be all gun hoe and ready to get out there and take on the world other day I want to crawl into a hole and never come out. Wishing people would leave me alone, and other days wishing I had more friends. I wish I could go into more detail about what is going on over here that is causing all these ups and downs, but I canâ€™t. I do know part of the problem though is associated with me creating unrealistic goals for myself, constantly comparing myself to others, and not believing in myself as much as I should. So today I let go of it all, and am vowing toâ€¦

Believe in myself, my talent, and the future.
Stop comparing my success or lack of to where others are in their life. I will get there on my own pathâ€¦
To try some new things that will get me out of the house and out of my comfort zone.
To work on current friendships and really value them.
To be grateful everyday for my health, and my ability to choose how I react to things.
Continue to write here for me, and not care if anyone reads this or not.
Work hard at what I love.
Not overwhelm myself with crazy to do lists and deadlines

Lastly, but I am not putting it on the list as it would then conflict with that last one. I want to try to write here more often. Not just post my paintings but get back to writing about life, CJ, and just the world around me. I would be more interested in reading a blog about more than just the pictures that are posted. So expect more thoughts, more words, and more glimpses into my world here.